Hi guys!
Sorry its been a while! I’ve had a few personal issues to deal with but I’m back now! Today I want to talk about opportunities, self-confidence and not being good enough.
Let’s start it off with a story, when I was 6 I was very shy but was offered the main role in a school play because my teacher thought I had the talent. Being a very shy girl, performing to a lot of people absolutely terrified me, I couldn’t even stand up in assembly and collect a certificate. I used to beg my mum not to take my certificates into school because I knew what would happen. So, I turned down this opportunity and my best friend at the time was offered the role. I didn’t mind at the time but even now I think what if I took the role? Would I be confident? I really regret not taking this chance.
I think now I should take every chance I get. I don’t always do because I’m scared of failing but someone once said to me ‘so what if you failed? You had an amazing experience and awesome time trying’. Those words stuck with me and I thought, you’re right. I shouldn’t just hide in the shadows anymore just ambling by in life. I need to work harder and take every opportunity handed to me with open arms and never look back.
My next point is about feeling like you’re not good enough. My mum is amazing and she always let me believe I could do anything when I was growing up and never doubted me at all. Whatever I wanted to do, or my current passion was at the time she did her best to encourage me, support me and provide lessons/equipment for me. Its only now when I’m older that I realise we weren’t well off growing up and I happened to pick expensive hobbies like horse riding and dancing which can be very expensive. I was never denied these, my parents went without so I could pursue these and I can’t thank them enough. Anyway, I’ve digressed, as I got older my ‘inner critic’ got more vocal and took over to the point where I genuinely believed I was a waste of space and not good enough. Nobody should feel like this. I believe now that everyone has a talent and sometimes it takes longer to find than others but its still there. Yes, it still terrifies me that I don’t 100% know what I want to do as a career and yes I do get grief about it from my father but I’ve learnt to deal with it. When I find my calling I like to think I will know.
So whenever you feel down, not good enough and a waste of space, always remember you have talent, you’re awesome the way you are so don’t change (especially if someone is asking you to but that’s a whole other topic!!) and don’t be afraid to ask for help.
Lots of love
Beth
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